Home Sweet...Grandma's Apartment?

I've been home from college for about two weeks now...and honestly, they've been pretty spiritually dry. I'm not sure why though...I'm living in my grandma's tiny apartment, with my life's belongings crammed into a tiny room that lacks A/C. I drive my dad's car to work each day, after picking it up from the middle school, and I'm trying to maintain energy throughout the day to get everything done. None of this is comfortable nor convenient for me, but I keep reminding myself that it could be worse.

I miss the Chapel, my small group, and my Tuesday dinners..I miss the constant chaos and noise of my residence hall. I miss all the opportunities to share my faith.

But there are still things to be celebrated...I found out yesterday that I will be an RA for the 2012-2013 school year and I could not be more excited. Not only is it a great financial blessing, but I'm also a role model and leader to many residents...what an awesome opportunity for ministry!!

Nonetheless, I have a lot of work to do...spiritually. I'm currently balancing a pretty much full-time job, summer classes, and clinicals at the hospital. From 6am to about 6pm, I'm nothing but busy. I do my best to use my nights to be productive and get some cleaning done, shop for groceries, and get in some exercise to clear my mind. But where does JESUS fit into that schedule? ...He doesn't. And that is where my problem lies. Because my relationship with Jesus is lacking, my joy has been stolen, friendships are broken, my family is falling apart, I start to doubt myself, and my world seems to be caving in around me.

A QUOTE: "If you're too busy for God, than you're busier than God intends for you to be."

I was able to talk with Virginia last night and let her know where I was at...thankfully, we have decided to hold each other accountable. It is so absolutely crucial that we are in the world daily and furthering our relationship with Christ. On the nights after work, we are going to get together for dinner and just read our Bibles together. After all, God does call us to fellowship with other believers and encourage each other. Youth group and church are great places to learn and grow, but outside of these things we need to be surrounding ourselves with believers AND having godly conversations....sometimes, we get together to vent, share our life problems...let's put it this way...THERAPY! These things aren't bad, but when they are the only things happening, we tend to go to our friends rather than God for help.

ANOTHER QUOTE: "Have you prayed about it as much as you've talked about it?"

Something I think that would be cool this summer, is "Fellowship Night." A night that once a week, friends/believers can meet at someone's house for dinner or maybe just snacks and coffee and fellowship. A time where we could present prayer requests, popcorn pray, play games, and talk about current, relative issues that we are all dealing with.

If I'm again honest, I hate when I have great ideas....because these ideas usually never happen. I'm too busy to plan and organize so I just write them off and keep dreaming. Hopefully in the days to come, I can pursue Christ, get back on track spiritually, and see where God leads me.

As for now, I'm in the middle of writing a paper for clinicals, and have yet to read two chapters and take notes on each of them.

Thanks for listening and praying!