Today I'm simply asking for prayer. This week has been more than rough. It's been emotional. It's been overwhelming. Girls, call it PMSing, but that's the only excuse I've got. I've blown up at people this week, and I've shut down. I'm seeking Christ and coming up short.
Tonight, my sister dyed my hair and it's far from the color I had wanted...not something I tend to freak out about, but for some reason that put me over. I held back tears at my friend's house and then got home around nine. I got ready for bed and then noticed that all my brownies had been eaten. (So typical of my family and extremely frustrating) One more thing to put me over. Then I proceeded to get screamed at by my mom after making a little scene about the brownies and walked up to my room to ignore her. Of course that only made things worse and I was lectured about my attitude. So here I am laying in bed, complaining to the world through my blog. I've finally pulled myself together after crying for twenty minutes. Being the girl that I am, I try to make my crying audible. It works nearly 90% of the time, and my dad creeps into my room and lays down next to me. He gives me about five minutes of crying while he rubs my back, and then asks me what's wrong. I deny giving him answers and cry some more. After giving me five more minutes he asks again, going on until I finally empty all my thoughts. Sometimes he'll even pick me up and rock me if I'm really upset. He's such a great dad! He's not one to lecture, but rather he likes to give me my voice and then simply agree with me to make me feel better. But tonight, that didn't work. No one heard me, no one came to comfort me.
I guess I would really just appreciate prayer. I think I've been in a rut for a long time, and I'm scrambling to find my way out. I've turned everywhere but the Lord. (Not the best thing to do.) Friends. Family. My own cleaning and music therapy. Nothing seems to be working this time. Pray that I would push past tonight and this emotional week and start tomorrow off fresh. Pray for a humble heart and lots of patience.
Dear Heavenly Father, My prayer tonight is that you would wrap your loving arms around me. Lord comfort me and be the heavenly father that I'm searching for. I pray that you would reveal yourself to me and restore the joy in me that seems to have been lost. You are an awesome God. May you become greater, as I become less. Humble me Lord, and use me for your glory. In Jesus name, Amen.
I Will Praise You O LORD My God, With All My Heart I Will Glorify Your Name Forever
Girl whatever is happening with you, I'm sorry. Sometimes your dad can't fulfill what a heavenly father can do. Some verses I want you to keep in mind is, Exodus 14:14-- "The Lord God will fight for you, you need only to be still." So in the midst of your trials, remember humble yourself to God, and know that He is greater then anything you face.
ReplyDeleteAs I'm looking at this post, one thing pops into my mind. Satan. The being that lives to destroy anything good. John 10:10 "The thief comes only to kill, steal, and destroy." Fight back, and don't let him destroy your family, your life, or your love for Papa God.
and thirdly, Romans 8:1&2 "Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who live in Christ Jesus, because the law of the spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death." God calls us to Him, and because of your relationship with Him, you are good enough. You have been set free... so don't let satan scare you or run to other things beside the Lord.
Hang in there(:
awww thanks so much kayla!! :) I love looking up Scriptures that didn't pop into my mind at the time that others tell me! sooo encouraging!!
ReplyDeleteyou're totally welcome. (:
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