Lately I've been wrestling at school with the area of friendship because I'm different. I'm different in the fact that my faith is a huge part of my life when I tend to be surrounded by "claim-to-be" Christians. As the weeks have gone on, I've allowed it to drag me down. My friends will act one way around me because they don't want to offend me, or they won't tell me things because they don't want me to judge them.
I am no longer one to judge; God is the only true and fair judge so who am I to compare to that? I think it hurts so much because I feel like I don't know anything about them anymore. I want to be someone they can come to when they need advice, I want to be someone that they can cry to while I simply sit there and comfort them. I love my friends and I hate to see them hurting.
Some of my friends I fear will go off to college and get involved with drinking and sex, and think nothing of it. They've made decisions based on which colleges will allow that. It's so sad to think that our group of little, innocent girls is slowly giving into wordly desires, all the while tearing apart friendships and increasing the distance between us all.
I don't know if any of you can relate; if you can, know that I'm praying for you because it's no fun to go through this. Or maybe you're reading this and you've already been through it...any advice?
Comments appreciated. Thanks guys!
I Will Praise You O LORD My God, With All My Heart I Will Glorify Your Name Forever
Great post, Julie! I went through a lot of this same thing in high school and in some ways still do- you are right, your friends might tiptoe around you because they think you will judge them or be offended. But, you are the one they come to in crisis. Just keep being authentic and being there for them. Pray for those opportunities. You will always be a stranger in this world and that's ok!! People change a lot in college and find their way- some on a good path and some not. You are on the right path and your friends will be drawn to your honesty and integrity!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you soo much! It's kind of good to know that I'm not that only one going through this. Sometimes I wish that I could find some way to connect with them, but the thing is, we're so different now that we hardly know what to talk about it. I'm trying my best to be authentic, but it's definitely not easy. Thanks so much for your encouragement!!
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