And they'll never understand....

So college itself has been great. I'm staying busy. Really busy. When I'm not doing homework or studying, I'm usually sleeping. If i'm bored for even a second, I make plans with whoever seems to be in the hall or someone will call for me to go hangout. I understand that I have been terrible at keeping in touch with the people back home, and i'm sorry. It's hard to explain to someone who doesn't live on campus what it's like. They will never understand how much fun it is....there is never a dull moment.

I'm sorry that all they've heard has been negative or if the lack of communication makes you think i'm screwing around. Yes, I made poor decisions when I first got here. I got involved with a guy who is not a Christian, but I had strong feelings and did what I wanted. It's a secular school and so I was encouraged to pursue him...but such is life and I learn from my mistakes. 

My faith has been under a lot of stress and I've been through a lot of trials lately. But as my life verse says (James 1:2-3) the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Because of everything going on, I have had to choose my faith for myself. It's no longer what my parents are enforcing or the social excitement of youth group. It's MY faith. It's my own. I've done my best to be an example to the girls on my floor and I'm seeking to start a floor bible study.

I have a prayer pouch on my door where people can drop off prayer requests. I write a bible verse on my door each morning. I tell you these things not to brag or show off like the Pharisees did. I tell you about these things because it seems that everyone at home is starting to doubt me. I'm getting texts, letters, or messages saying that i'm not keeping in touch, and for that I am truly sorry. The chaos and excitement of life has sucked me in and i'm loving every second. Not hearing from me does not mean that i'm hiding off at college, ashamed to tell those at home what's going on. It is the simple fact that i'm busy and preoccupied. I've made it a point to make new friends here and impact others for Christ. 

I understand that my blogs may have been depressing, but my blog was initially made as a way for me to vent, without annoying people on facebook. Blogging is basically me venting without anyone saying anything back to me. Hopefully this blog is more upbeat and it reassures everyone that I'm doing well. I really, truly am. College life is great. God is still good. Oh, speaking of God....campus focus tonight was SO good! One of the best sermons I've ever heard. That's all for now. It's time for homework. Such is college life. Over and out :)